|Just Some Stuff
||[Mar. 20th, 2010|10:11 pm]
|||||Nickleback - If Today Was Your Last Day||]|
I think I may be slipping into a depressive cycle. Its not surprising, considering that I my right foot is still keeping me hobbled.
I am waiting for paperwork from the hospital to get to work so I can return to work. However, its been a week and a half since my last appointment, and the paperwork has not made it. I suspect the doctor is intentionally withholding the paperwork in order to give me more time to heal. I can't say I blame him. On the other hand, I am tired of being 'disabled'. (Yes, my foot is still swollen, and still hurts quite a bit.) I want to get back to work, the gym, and back to karate training. I am sick, and tired of being cooped up at home, alone.
I have found myself becoming unjustifiably enraged. I have also been having bizarre recurring dreams. I really think I need to get out, but I have no where to go, and no one I can go see.
I wonder what trait, or quirk of my personality leads me to constantly keep people at a distance. I rarely make friends, and even when I do, I usually end up pushing them away. I wonder why that is. It rarely bothers me. Usually, I am too busy with work, and my training to notice. However, times like this, being injured and unable to do much, I am left to wonder about it.
In other news, I have begun looking into different options for my cruise next year. I have discovered that the total cost for a cruise for 2 people is only slightly more than the cost for 1 person. It would be nice to have a traveling companion when I go on the cruise, but I am not sure if that will happen.
I've basically narrowed it down to one of two options. Either the same cruise I want on last year, or maybe a cruise along the west cost of the US. In May or June, I'll go talk to my parent's travel agent, and get some more details.
I am also looking into different options for moving. For a one bedroom apartment, I am not really going to get a better price than what I am paying now. If I want a cheaper place, I'm going to have to look into renting a room and sharing a house. I'm a little hesitant about sharing a place, given my previous experience with roommates. I'm especially hesitant, because right now my only option is to share a place with complete strangers. I did notice something odd, and very surprising. I found a 3 bedroom house for rent in Bradford. The price was actually within the upper range of what I would be willing to pay. I can only assume the house is completely unfurnished with no appliances.
Though, moving is not really an option, right now. I need to wait until my feet are healed, and I can walk normally before I really look into moving.